You have to make yourself do it. This is something I've always known, but it hasn't been as clear to me as it is right now. Strip yourself of doubts and just move forward. I've been lucky enough to have been surrounded by an amazing support system who believes in me and now it's time I show up for myself and work through all the things that will take my work to the next level. I have to keep making work, I have to keep submitting work, and I have to keep writing about my work, talking about my work. I've been pretty terrified and insecure of doing all these things which has stunted me and become something of a self-fulfilling prophecy. So now it's time to rewrite my own prophecy. I'm writing from the hip here, and I wanted to get some of these initial thoughts down somewhere. Here are some things I wrote about specific pieces I made, trying to make sense of it all. Do any of them resonate with you?
This is the expression of impulse through color and mark. Small parts come together to make a cohesive whole that could either be in bloom or retracting into itself.
Nature's choreography is ordered chaos, poetic in its movement.
This is an abstracted bouquet, illustrating every state of growth and decay all at once. Every mark and movement, all at once.
A contemporary abstract iteration of classical Dutch still life; instead of still and illustrating the mortal existence, my still life is active and living.
By removing the "objectness" of a specific form, it can become a landscape. An interpretation of a place, of a memory, of a feeling.
Emotions and relationships go through fluctuating states, peaks and valleys. Sometimes there are loud punctuations and other times there are just whispers. Disappearing memories of love.
A stroke becomes a character.